Been such a long time since I last updated this thing. Sigh... I do wish I can have a normal summer like everyone else. Damn it! Lotsa things happened. My computer was reformatted and everything in it was deleted... thanx to mom. I know it was also my fault for not calling my uncle as soon as possible. But my mom should've told him not to touch it till I'm there or I was able to talk. The thing they don't understand was that it didn't have a virus... it was an adware for crying out loud! And now, all of my hard earned mangas are gone. Hunter X Hunter mangas especially. They're all deleted and I already had about 16 volumes. GOD!!! Worse thing is that the manga is now licensed. ack!

Came to the point of breaking after second sem ended. SPUI is really tearing me apart. Heck, I can't even recognize myself anymore. Before becoming a nursing student, I promised myself I'd do this as fast as i can so I'll still be able to do MY plans. I want to have my own life. I only want to repay my parents for everything then live the way I wanna. I know my parents spent and sacrificed a lot for me. 19 long years... make that 20+ (till I graduate). Although somehow, I kinda think this is good. Although I'm suffering, at least I have an idea that I'm truly paying them back even in the process of getting that money. I'm suffering a lot. I wanted to quit becasue it's driving me nuts. I don't know who I am anymore. I am a pitiful wraith of my old self. I was way cooler, a better person before. I was more creative, more artistic, more passionate. I was more of a person before... now... I'm not so sure.